Being trusting today doesn’t mean you’ll be as trusting tomorrow.
There are many factors that make us lose our trust in God (even a little bit).
There’s our need for control. When things are out of our control, it’s harder to trust God. We want things to happen how and when we want them to happen. When they don’t, we lose our trust.
There are also our sins, failures, and mistakes. I made a lot of mistakes and committed a lot of sins when I struggled to find work earlier this year. Every time I did, I felt unworthy to receive His blessings, His grace, and His forgiveness. I always felt I was so dirty to receive His fulfillment of my dreams.
But, that’s the same as not trusting God’s kindness, mercy, and love.
One thing I still struggle with is knowing how much God loves me. I’m still stuck in my old image of a conditional and performance-based God. But, this year, my theme for which is “Trust,” I’m doing my best to change that image into a God who loves me unconditionally.
I have to learn how to trust despite my sins and my mistakes.
I have to learn how to trust that God wants to bless me, that He wants my dreams to come true, despite my failures and setbacks.
I have to learn how to trust that God loves me, no matter how far I’ve fallen away from Him.
Here’s a quick test on trusting God:
Are you keeping a positive disposition or outlook?
Trusting means believing that God wants to bless you. Trusting means believing that God is making the universe conspire to bless you, no matter how dirty you think you’ve become.
When you live always expecting God’s best no matter how far you’ve fallen, then you’re trusting God.
“While the son was still a long way off, his father caught sight of him, and was filled with compassion. He ran to his son, embraced him and kissed him.” — Luke 15:20