“Child, your sins are forgiven.” — Mark 2:5
Yesterday, I was down with a terrible flu (or trangkaso).
Whenever I have a flu, I can’t get out of bed. Whenever I stand up or sit down, I feel as if my head is being split in two.
I don’t often get sick. But, it really feels terrible whenever I do. I literally feel a throbbing pain in the veins on my head.
While I was lying down in bed, I prayed for healing. But, while I was praying for healing, I felt as if God spoke to me like how Jesus spoke to the paralytic. He said to me, “Your sins are forgiven.”
For the past few weeks, I haven’t been able to forgive myself of my sins, my laziness, my weaknesses, my lost opportunities, and the time I wasted. I didn’t notice it, but I was feeling down. (That’s why I haven’t been able to post consistently on the blog as well during the past few weeks.) It finally caught up to me in the form of a sickness.
Maybe my unforgiveness was the cause of my sickness. When I felt that God has already forgiven me, I finally forgave myself too.
I spent the whole night praying, reading the bible, surrendering all my worries to God, and forgiving myself. When I woke up this morning, I felt so much better. Usually, it takes me days or even a whole week to recover from a flu. So, for me, this is a miracle.
A miracle of healing… through forgiveness.
How about you? Have you already forgiven yourself of your sins, your past mistakes, your wrong decisions, or even lost opportunities?
P.S. What’s amazing is that I didn’t even take any medications. Not even paracetamol. I addressed my sickness at the root—unforgiveness.